What am I doing?

This post is for self.

I want to know what I want from myself. A very harsh statement indeed for after so many years of writing I still don’t have a clue where to start from. It seems like my think tank fuel has come to a halt or I might be redirecting it elsewhere. Whatever be the case, I can concentrate on one thing at a time. Since corona time my writing career has taken a back seat. Its not that I am not writing anymore. I am. Everyday. Little by little. But I am not taking the pain to publish it. It is so fearful. Like my fingers freeze the moment I choose the publish button. Why this ambiguity? Maybe it is the fear of being judged. Of late this syndrome is taking a toll on me. People’s reaction. It was something that never bothered me earlier. I was always doing what my heart wanted me to do. However, now I have started pondering whether it will be wise enough to go ahead or not. As if waiting for someone’s approval. But it never came. And my ideas kept taking back seat. Is this the way I dream of 2023?

No I don’t think so.

This year I have promised myself a lot of things and my books is certainly on top of my priority list. I have a couple of them that are waiting to see the light of the day. My books are me and I can’t let me die so soon so easily. Let me tell you about my writings.

I love writing for those who are unheard of , uncared, emotionally deprived, with a huge turmoil inside, those who don’t voice their pains. Yes I write pain. Pain that aches the soul even if the wound outside has healed. There still remains a scar. That pain one goes through every night when they finally get off to sleep. When they have just themselves to speak to. Just them to hear.

Even if you are surrounded by people, even if you are are sound professionally, even if you are a public figure, even if you are the topic of all the gossip, the moment you hit your pillow it’s just you and your soul, a soul session. Where nothing is veiled and your wounds are as naked as they have always been. A pain that doesn’t let you sleep at night. A pain that always take you back to it’s origin every damn night. You struggle alone every night for it to be over. Only to relive it the next night.

I want to write about it. I have written about it. I am writing about it.

You can portray to be very strong to world but you are a helpless child within, looking for warmth, looking for a secure home and happiness. I want to be there for you. I want to write for you. I want to share this pain to the world. Maybe it gets a chance to get healed.

My upcoming work is

MIRROR 2

50, Love and Relationship Quotes & other stories.

Due in February 2023. Stay tuned for more.

My Year 2022 Round Up

Wishing you all a very happy 2023. God bless you all.

I maybe a little late posting this calendar but I am happy I did it. My last two years I could not post due to various reasons.

January

I started the year 2022 with a bang.

Two of my special programs for New Year 2022 was selected for telecast at Akashwani Raipur . So it was a big opportunity for me.

In Studio Akashwani Raipur

February

A special program on spring “Basant Ayo Re ” was broadcasted by Prasar Bharathi at Akashwani Raipur.

March

I completed my first assignment as a ghost writer for my firm FICUS BOOK PUBLISHING SERVICES. As a new firm it was a big opportunity for all of us a a team.

After lockdown, we had our first out stationed tour to Mumbai. It was so pleasant to be with family once more.

April

Participated in Aprilbloggingchallenge2022. My theme this year was mental health issues. In this challenge we had to write a blog post everyday in the month of April on the theme selected. I completed the challenge. It was a fantastic opportunity to read other bloggers and interact with them. After lockdown it was a fresh start for me in writting.

May

I was invited for the book launch of the memoir mentored by me.

June

First event of the year, Summer Camp organized by our team New Hope Society. It was a good experience altogether.

July

This year my only book release Mirror: Self Help, Motivational book. Available on amazon.

With the onset of monsoons, our team New Hope Society organized “Poudha Ropan” event.

Comperes of Bindiya program , Akashwani Raipur were invited by Government School, Dumartarai for Hareli Festival celebration. It was an honour to visit the school and meet the teachers and Principal sir.

August

Team New Hope Society celebrated Independence Day, “Azaadi Ek Ehsaas ” with lots of enthusiasm. It was a big and very successful event.

September

Special Program on the occasion of World Heart Day for Askashwani Raipur

October

Durga Puja and Diwali celebrations

November

It was an honour to be invited by Krishna Public School to be part of the judges panel for the interschool event Litfest 2022

December

Got an opportunity to be part of wedding celebration of my niece at Raipur. It was a big family get together after a long gap. We enjoyed a lot.

My friends made by birthday very special.

New Hope Society organized an event “Muskan : A Day with the elders at the Old age Home”. Several people associated with us and helped us make the event a big success. A splendid way to end the year and welcome the new year.

Once again a very happy new year to you all. May you too have a happening 2023 both professionally and personally.

The Wedding Gift (Short Story)

From the book : The Wedding Gift

She stood in front of her murderer, a lifeless body, listening to every word he spoke with utter attention. As if he was chanting some mantra of her destruction. When he finally ended, Nirmala couldn’t feel the ground beneath her feet. The world spun in front of her eyes and she tried to hold on to something, probably his arms, to stop her from falling down. But then, he had already turned his back towards her and was moving towards the door. She couldn’t let him just go. The act was not yet over. It was her turn now.

Nobody walks away with murder.

Ebook

#Shortstory

#Thrillersuspense

#IndianShortStory

Check it out Here

Available on #KindleUnlimited

From The Book: Mirror – Self help motivational (New Release)

There is always something to share in everyone’s life. I am glad I wrote this book to let you all know how I feel when I am at the bottom of my life and how I manage to rise up again. Maybe we share something in common. Check out my new book and let me know how you feel about it.

The Blurb

The success lies in never giving up your goal whatever be the situation. Our failure is our testing time. It questions us if we are on the right path or not.
My inspiration in writing motivational and relationship book is from my own experiences in life. My life has been an intense emotional roller coaster ride that brought me closer to my actual soul calling, spreading positive vibes and healing. Frankly, I saw myself in many of my friends, family and even people whom I didn’t know. The suffering was the same everywhere.
This book is a small attempt to show that you are not alone in such a situation and with self healing tables can be turned.

You can checkout the book here getbook.at/mirror

This book talks about #mentalhealth issues and how to heal our self.

New Release Book – MIRROR (self help motivational book)

Name of the book: Mirror

Author: Paromita Goswami

Genre : Selfhelp, motivational, non-fiction, short read

Publisher : Ficus India Books

The Blurb

The success lies in never giving up your goal whatever be the situation. Our failure is our testing time. It questions us if we are on the right path or not.
My inspiration in writing motivational and relationship book is from my own experiences in life. My life has been an intense emotional roller coaster ride that brought me closer to my actual soul calling, spreading positive vibes and healing. Frankly, I saw myself in many of my friends, family and even people whom I didn’t know. The suffering was the same everywhere.
This book is a small attempt to show that you are not alone in such a situation and with self healing tables can be turned.

You can checkout the book here getbook.at/mirror

This book talks about #mentalhealth issues and how to heal our self.

Book Spotlight: Mirror by Paromita Goswami

Hey guys very happy to announce that my new book is now live and available for download on Amazon.

Name of the book : Mirror

Author : Paromita Goswami

Genre : Selfhelp, motivational, non-fiction, short read

Publisher : Ficus India Books

The Blurb :

The success lies in never giving up your goal whatever be the situation. Our failure is our testing time. It questions us if we are on the right path or not.
My inspiration in writing motivational and relationship book is from my own experiences in life. My life has been an intense emotional roller coaster ride that brought me closer to my actual soul calling, spreading positive vibes and healing. Frankly, I saw myself in many of my friends, family and even people whom I didn’t know. The suffering was the same everywhere.
This book is a small attempt to show that you are not alone in such a situation and with self healing, the tables can be turned.

Add the book to goodreads

Read for #free on #kindleUnlimited

Buying link

About the author

Paromita Goswami is a writer and storyteller by passion and a rebel by choice. She says the world is full of stories and as a writer she loves to pen them down. Her work is not genre specific. From literary fiction to children book to paranormal thriller and women fiction Paromita Goswami’s books offer the variety of life to her readers. This is her first attempt in self help motivational and inspirational book aimed at self healing.

 Besides writing, she loves singing and also organizes events for social welfare and cultural benefits for the community. She also hosts programs for all India radio.  She lives in Raipur, Chhattisgarh with her big family consisting of furry babies and humans.

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Website – paromitagoswami.wordpress.com

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Twitter – @authorparomita

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